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Meditation Diary 10.05.13

today I started with the Lords prayer and then a couple of minutes of being aware that i was aware, before doing the 9 malas of the minor air mantra(I am on day four of twelve now).

Then I did some observation on the concept greed, and the first 10 or 15 minutes I did not find much, a couple of situations where I found myself to be greedy, but there was not that much emotional response so I asked myself “what is greed” and immediately I was flooded with emotions as I saw that being greedy is wanting more than is needed, and I found that I do that a lot. I am wishing for more money even thou I have what i need and a little extra. I find myself wanting to know more, to be more and to have a bigger impact on people. So I observed this for around 40 minutes before I decided that I would not be done with this today and started my meditation on the 2nd avatar mantra for 20 minutes, and that was the end of my meditation today.

All in all a meditation session lasting around an hour and a half.

 

GuruDev

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Meditation Diary 08.05.13

today after my usual introduction prayer, I did 9 malas of the air mantra, today I had no tingling feeling on my skull but just energy being present, after that I did some of the 2nd avatar mantra both mantras I was on the verge of transcending most of the time and I did so a couple of times, I take that as a sign that something is happening. all in all about an hour of meditation.

 

GuruDev

 

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Meditation Diary 07.05.13

Today I started as most days with the lords prayer and my addition to it.

The first thing I did was a bit of Om Mani Padme Hum and observation to clear some emotions I had in my stomach. When the feelings where less intense I did 9 malas of the air mantra as the first day of that mantras charging process. I will be done in 12 days. I have previously done 7 of the 12 days but last time I stopped for reasons I can not remember at the moment, so I am not starting from scratch, I know the mantra and can feel the effect fairly quick. it was funny because when I did the mantra the energy concentrated more clearly on a spot on the top of my head on the right side,  this patch had a tingling sensation about it.

The next thing I did was the second mantra of the avatar process, I had trouble staying incarnate when doing this on, I discovered multiple times where I had stopped saying the mantra, and sometimes I was saying the first mantra of the process instead of the first, and sometimes I simply forgot the last half of the mantra.

so all in all this was a pretty cool meditation, looking forward to the next days.

 

GuruDev

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Meditation Diary 01.05.13

today I started with the lords prayer and a little prayer afterwards, then i did some Om mani Padme Hum. after this I started integrating some experiences I had today and use about 15 minutes on that, before I switched to the first mantra of the avatar process, which I did for about 10 minutes before I stopped.

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Meditation diary 30.04.13

today, like yesterday I started my meditation session with the Lord’s prayer and then the small prayer asking that may b in service of God and that God’s will be done.

Then I started doing some integration(self-therapy) of the first feeling that popped up, while reciting “Om mani padme Hum” to keep my consciousness high. the emotion I was working on was not easily identified, but when I asked myself what it was I got an image from a dream I had right before waking up this morning, so I suppose the two things are connected, I just have to figure out the meaning of it. the integration lasted for around 25 minutes.

The next thing i did was the first mantra of the avatar process(the mantra of joy and bliss) and i did that(while transcending) for about 25 minutes as well. I was generating  lot of heat and felt very hot while meditating, especially in my feet, hands and head.

 

GuruDev

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Meditation diary 29.04.13

Today i started out with one recitation of the lords prayer and a small prayer asking that everything i do, think and say is in service to God.

Then i did a bit of time of the compassion mantra, before i slowly blended into integration(self-therapy) of my fear of having an impact in the world eventhough i so want to have an impact on the things around me. After about half an hour of integration(if you can call it that, i was trancending almost all of the time) i did around 25 minutes of the first avatar mantra, also transending a lot, i suppose that the transending is due to the fact that i did not sleep very much between yesterday and today and perhaps i am a bit more sensitive after a weekend seminar with Maha.

 

GuruDev

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Meditation diary 26.04.13 – 28.04.13

i have had a lot on my mind this weekend so i did not want to use my time to write in this diary, so i will do it now instead.

Friday i wasn’t really happy, so i got drunk, watched tv-series and got emotional, it was not that spiritual, but a release of pressure that i believe i needed, the main emotions that surfaced friday night was a feeling of being alone and a feeling of being worthless, both feelings that are somewhat reoccurring in my life and that i have not yet found the root of, but i will. Eventually.

Saturday i attended a streamed seminar with Maha Vajra, the topic was shortly told: how to fuse the profane with the sacred.

Sunday was the second day of the streamed seminar with Maha Vajra, this day the topic, on request of one of the participants, was: how to ascend quickly.

condensed version of what i understood:

  • do daily practice(more than 20 minutes) if you want to ascend fast, do the work.
  • observe why you are pessimistic and do not think you can archive something when you have not tried yet.
  • have an open mind to try out options, and never rule out anything before you have tested it.
  • Do things with others in mind, do not do things purely for yourself, but do not do it purely for others either, find the balance between the two.
  • develop the mindset of “I do not know how to do this, but i will find out.”

on a more personal note, i reacted to something Maha said that made me realize that he thinks that i benefits others, and it seems i do not agree with that, i can see intellectually that i benefits those around me, but i do not agree emotionally, i have some deep rooted feeling of not being enough i think. so i used some time after the seminar meditating to observe this feeling, when the feeling subsided i did a bit of  meditation on joy and then proceeded to go for a evening walk, before sitting down to try and work on a assignment i had to do.

 

GuruDev

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God’s Will

god will not throw you the easy ball, he will challenge you, but he will challenge you so you will be ready, so you will evolve, i will try to embrace  that, how hard it may seem, no matter how much it seems like he is just trying to get me down, some day i will understand until then i will just have faith that He knows what is right…
Gods will be done

Amen

GuruDev

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Meditation diary 25.04.13: Avatar 1

Today i decided that i want to start doing the avatar process of incarnation as taught by Maha Vajra.

So my meditation today consisted of a little bit of “OM Mani Padme Hum” and then i did the first mantra of the avatar process(the mantra of bliss and joy) for about half an hour. During my meditation i transended a couple of times, one of the times I transended i was not completely gone but had some awareness of my body at the same time another time i “woke up” and found myself repaeting my soulname mantra instead of the one i was doing, so i switched back again.

The meditation left me happy and relaxed and with a continous feeling that my heart is growing.

 

GuruDev