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Meditation Diary 11.05.13

Yesterday I came home tired from work so I shortened my meditation down a bit, but here is what I did: I did the lords prayer and some contemplation on shanti(peace) to get in the right state of mind. Then I did my 9 malas of the air mantra, which went rather uneventful.

The next thing I did was to try to integrate some greed again as I did the day before as well, as suggested by Apsagni I focused on what I was grateful for. the result was that after some time I had a small spot under my right eye which started hurting in a buzzing kind of way, rubbing it helped for a short while but it returned quickly again, and did not stop before I stopped observing greed. I have experienced this kind of pain a couple of times before, usually when I meditation on my soul and try to drag it into my body. The pain is always in my face, but it can be in different places and can be triggered by different kinds of meditation, my guess is that it is when there is something my ego do not want to do it materializes this pain to make me stop meditating.

the last thing I did was a short contemplation of the second avatar mantra before going to bed.

 

GuruDev

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Meditation Diary 10.05.13

today I started with the Lords prayer and then a couple of minutes of being aware that i was aware, before doing the 9 malas of the minor air mantra(I am on day four of twelve now).

Then I did some observation on the concept greed, and the first 10 or 15 minutes I did not find much, a couple of situations where I found myself to be greedy, but there was not that much emotional response so I asked myself “what is greed” and immediately I was flooded with emotions as I saw that being greedy is wanting more than is needed, and I found that I do that a lot. I am wishing for more money even thou I have what i need and a little extra. I find myself wanting to know more, to be more and to have a bigger impact on people. So I observed this for around 40 minutes before I decided that I would not be done with this today and started my meditation on the 2nd avatar mantra for 20 minutes, and that was the end of my meditation today.

All in all a meditation session lasting around an hour and a half.

 

GuruDev

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Meditation Diary 09.05.13

Today I started with the lords prayer, before I did my 9 malas of the air mantra, today I had no problems staying conscious through the meditation ,but on the other hand I did not feel as powerful as I did the two first days, I think this had something to do with the fact that my mind was racing with thoughts.

After the 9 malas, I did some integration on the subject of being in service to others and what makes me not want to do it sometimes.

the last thing I did after I ended my integration, was the second avatar mantra for about ten minutes, the meditation session lasted about an hour.

 

GuruDev

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Meditation Diary 08.05.13

today after my usual introduction prayer, I did 9 malas of the air mantra, today I had no tingling feeling on my skull but just energy being present, after that I did some of the 2nd avatar mantra both mantras I was on the verge of transcending most of the time and I did so a couple of times, I take that as a sign that something is happening. all in all about an hour of meditation.

 

GuruDev

 

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Meditation Diary 07.05.13

Today I started as most days with the lords prayer and my addition to it.

The first thing I did was a bit of Om Mani Padme Hum and observation to clear some emotions I had in my stomach. When the feelings where less intense I did 9 malas of the air mantra as the first day of that mantras charging process. I will be done in 12 days. I have previously done 7 of the 12 days but last time I stopped for reasons I can not remember at the moment, so I am not starting from scratch, I know the mantra and can feel the effect fairly quick. it was funny because when I did the mantra the energy concentrated more clearly on a spot on the top of my head on the right side,  this patch had a tingling sensation about it.

The next thing I did was the second mantra of the avatar process, I had trouble staying incarnate when doing this on, I discovered multiple times where I had stopped saying the mantra, and sometimes I was saying the first mantra of the process instead of the first, and sometimes I simply forgot the last half of the mantra.

so all in all this was a pretty cool meditation, looking forward to the next days.

 

GuruDev

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Meditation Diary 06.05.13

Yesterday my meditation started with the lord’s prayer and a personal prayer afterwards.

then I did a mala of each of the 5 elements as I did the day before, because i want to charge the last of the elements(9 malas a for 12 days) air which is the only one I have not charged yet, so I want to make sure still have the connection to the earlier elements before charging air.

then I did some integration of some emotions, while chanting om mani padme hum.

I ended the session with the second mantra(self-love) of the avatar process which has the goal to incarnate your soul more in your body.

 

GuruDev

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Meditation diaries 04.05.13 & 05.05.13

Saturday I was at my parents house to celebrate my youngest brother so I decided to make my meditation short this day so what i did was some prayer before i went to bed, the Lord’s prayer and a bit of “freestyle prayer” and that was what i did Saturday.

Sunday the 5th of may was a bit special as it is a celebration day in the buddhist tradition Mahajrya to which I belong. So I went to see my teacher in the afternoon and we did a mala of the five elements(earth, fire, heaven, water, air) and talked some about the subject of the celebration which is karma and causality.

when I got home I did a little of the 1st avatar mantra before I went to bed.

GuruDev

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Meditation Diary 01.05.13

today I started with the lords prayer and a little prayer afterwards, then i did some Om mani Padme Hum. after this I started integrating some experiences I had today and use about 15 minutes on that, before I switched to the first mantra of the avatar process, which I did for about 10 minutes before I stopped.

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Meditation diary 30.04.13

today, like yesterday I started my meditation session with the Lord’s prayer and then the small prayer asking that may b in service of God and that God’s will be done.

Then I started doing some integration(self-therapy) of the first feeling that popped up, while reciting “Om mani padme Hum” to keep my consciousness high. the emotion I was working on was not easily identified, but when I asked myself what it was I got an image from a dream I had right before waking up this morning, so I suppose the two things are connected, I just have to figure out the meaning of it. the integration lasted for around 25 minutes.

The next thing i did was the first mantra of the avatar process(the mantra of joy and bliss) and i did that(while transcending) for about 25 minutes as well. I was generating  lot of heat and felt very hot while meditating, especially in my feet, hands and head.

 

GuruDev